going in fast circles
Feb. 16th, 2020 06:32 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
adrift_etcIt's been three weeks since I've come to the Mainland and started galloping thoroughbreds. It's gone fast (duh). This is a completely different kind of riding than I'm used to, and I keep falling down. Every day we start around 7.15, and finish up by 14.00ish, at which point I hasten myself to the dog park and then go immediately to bed. I have 0 hobbies.
Actually, I've been reading poetry in the bath. Not a hobby? Drat.
I've been wrestling with this sort of existential discontent or this feeling like the disturbed dust of life is about to settle, and it's time now to decide where. I have three permanent job offers as a professional in the industry, one an unpaid internship type deal (like what I've done since graduating Highschool), another paid back in Germany, and then continuing with this that I've started doing now, with the fast horses, which pays tremendously. I think if I go to Germany again I will stay there, maybe forever. I think if I ride the fast horses, I will not have many opportunities in the slow horse world again. I think if I take an unpaid position again I'll be broke and 25. Being broke and 24 is enough, thanks.
I thought I'd have a million things to say but I don't.
Actually, I've been reading poetry in the bath. Not a hobby? Drat.
I've been wrestling with this sort of existential discontent or this feeling like the disturbed dust of life is about to settle, and it's time now to decide where. I have three permanent job offers as a professional in the industry, one an unpaid internship type deal (like what I've done since graduating Highschool), another paid back in Germany, and then continuing with this that I've started doing now, with the fast horses, which pays tremendously. I think if I go to Germany again I will stay there, maybe forever. I think if I ride the fast horses, I will not have many opportunities in the slow horse world again. I think if I take an unpaid position again I'll be broke and 25. Being broke and 24 is enough, thanks.
I thought I'd have a million things to say but I don't.
